At the window you sit near during online classes.
Something for always
You’ve introduced and reintroduced me to beauty. Not just your beauty, but Beauty itself has acquired meaning and a weight. I tried so hard to embrace the ugly, the weird, the hard to accept, the not fitting in that I started gaining a certain disgust for anything that anyone deemed Beautiful. But that isn’t what beauty is… is it? it’s about finding it in everything. It’s in fact not about embracing the ugly, it’s not, not at all, I’ve been so foolish. It’s about how there is no ugly, no beauty, just Beauty.
I wish everyone could wear their beauty on their face. I’d love to gaze upon such faces. I’d be much more akin to liking people then. I have a lot of hate in me. sometimes I feel like I’m made of pure hate and rage. I don’t like it, I can never push it out. It really makes me uncomfortable, really uncomfortable, so uncomfortable. I cherish gazing at your pictures that we clicked. At these moments, it reminds me of beauty and your capacity for beauty, how you make beauty a verb and it flows through you to me, to everybody.
Your beautiful friend,